Will the loss never end.

Will the loss never end.

As I sit here and struggle with my 2 "senior seniors" and their end-of-life season, I receive a call from my ex husband and dear friend, Will.

Our dearest Sammy unexpectedly had to make his transition to the other side after a visit for bloodwork.

Sam was the "challenging dog" who wasn't doing well in boarding with the rescue we volunteered at many years ago.

We fostered, and it became abundantly clear he was home.

He was so sick when we first got him. Lots of different maladies and concerns, and I made it my mission to rebuild his internal army and restore health.

Soon enough, his skin became well conditioned, his coat had a gorgeous sheen, the sparkle in his eyes returned, and his body was back in balance.

Will and Sam had a beautiful bond, and it was the two of them against the world after our marriage ended.

Sam was by Will's side through new jobs and opportunities, relocations, and the birth of his little human brother.

He and Will just "got" each other, and were so deeply connected.

My heart aches for Will, as this is an excruciating loss. I mourn Sam, too, as we also shared a very special bond.

Saying goodbye years ago was such a hard call to make... but I knew he was in good hands.

Although I didn't get to say goodbye... to see or kiss his head one last time... or tell him what a good boy he was.... I hope he hears me now. I hope he sees my tears and knows they're filled with the love I have for him.

Sammy was an amazing teacher for us both in many ways, and his presence on this earth will be sorely missed.

RIP Sam. I hope Chip was there to greet you and walk you Home.