This day 365 days ago.

This day 365 days ago was one of the most gut-wrenching days of my life.

The day of goodbyes.

The day you took your last breath.

The day your heart beat for the last time.

The day our pack, our little family, fractured.

The day our home shifted in feeling.

And the day my life was forever altered.

I can't believe it's been a year already.

We've all been carrying on as best we can, my sweet Chip.

Your brothers and sister seem to be aging faster than I can get used to.

I'm sure you remember how life used to be. The peace, the ease, the joy, the flow, the harmony.

It's now riddled with pee pads, baby gates and barriers, and tons of adjustments.

Incontinence, blindness, deafness, slower-steps, little Todd's dementia and disorientation.... this is our "new normal."

Todd is barely hanging on. Every day is a struggle and comes with its own set of question marks. But he's safe, loved, and comfortable.

Do you ever visit them?

Ronin has brought so much life, joy, and adventure back into our ever-changing family and home. He's also been a wonderful distraction. Thank you for sending him.

Today will be spent cherishing your memory, my little chocolate Chip. Life became infinitely better when you came into it... and forever changed (in so many ways) when you left.

I hope you'll come around today... I'll be asking and looking for signs.

Sending you so much love.... wherever you are. <3