The last time.

My heart is just broken in a million pieces.

Little Todd is receiving his last red light therapy treatment.

He ate his last meal.

I washed his little bowl and his precious, food-caked face for the last time.

I've been rocking him in my arms for the last time (which always seemed to calm him).

Every thing I do with Todd I can't help but think... this is the last time.

The last time I'll know him like this.

The last time he'll be with me in this little dark chocolate body. With his funny teeth (well... what's left of them). His mini-Batman ears.

Todd was one of the sweetest souls I've known.

I wish I would've done therapy work with him--- he would've been perfect for that kind of role.

But ... he was a therapy dog. In many ways. Just an "unofficial" one.

He was therapy for me.

For the dogs in our pack (when Chip was ill, Todd was glued to his side. When Tucker passed and Raiyna was so lost without him, it was little Todd who helped her through her mourning).

For dog-fearing children and people.

For dog-fearing dogs.

Even dog-angry dogs.

Todd made a friend wherever he went.

He was so un-Chihuahua and un-MinPin like. Truly a little buddha of a dog.

A mighty force of Love in a tiny brown body.

He was also the perfect kissing booth dog-- he just loooooved doling out the kisses. And everyone was most worthy and deserving.

Raiyna kept me up all night last night with restlessness and pacing. She's not been dong well herself these last weeks, and I'm fearing she may not be too far behind Todd.

All of this is just so unbearable.

All this loss and devastation.

I want to send a most sincere thanks to all who donated to little Todd's Go Fund Me (https://gofund.me/afd7572e). Having you all in our corner these last few years has made all the difference. I can't thank you enough.

Thanks to you, we exceeded our goal a little bit- so any overflow will be going to continued dog care and our transition to the road.

This will be one of the most difficult days in my life. The loss of each of my dogs... my teachers.... my inspiration.... my beloved little family.... are the toughest days of my life.

Hug your loved ones. And please say a prayer for precious Todd as he crosses worlds.....

I love you so very much, my little boy. It was such an honor being your "mom".