Signs…
The most magnificent things happened yesterday.
If you've been following me for a while, you know I'm a spiritual, praying gal. I also strongly believe in "signs" (the book, "Signs: The Secret Language of the Universe" is a must-read | https://a.co/d/21rxRBo ), and the power of affirmations to retrain our brains and re-pattern our thinking. Our hikes and pack walks are sacred, and I spend the great majority of that time in prayer and active meditation.
A few days ago, the weight of all that's been going was at its heaviest. Praying through an endless stream of tears, I called upon my grandmother. The only member of my family I was ever close to. Who fully accepted me exactly as I was- "black sheep", "system-bucker", misfit and all; and she still loved me dearly. We were deeply connected (she passed in 1998). In prayer, I asked for a very clear, undeniable, unquestionable, unique sign she was still with me. I also asked this of Chip.
Yesterday was a wash out. Raining aaaaaaaall day long, and quite heavy at times.
My oldies got their afternoon walk when there was a break in the weather, but weren't too keen on getting a morning soak. So, Ronin and I braved it alone (....feels weird walking only one dog).
After spending hours video and audio editing, recording, etc. for the new Walk Like A Boss 10 Day Challenge/ Mini Course, I took a break to take the dogs out for relief.
It was still steadily raining and I was out with Raiyna when...the most beautiful hummingbird (?!?) flew DIRECTLY up to my face... in the pouring rain.... she was about 6 inches from my face... holding steadily in the air... flying in place and just---- staring at me! She shifted a bit to the right, then turned and flew off. She disappeared just as quickly as she had appeared. Whoa... I couldn't believe it. It was the most unexpected, *magical* experience. Thank you, Grandma.
About an hour later, I logged onto Facebook. A picture of Chip popped up in my FB memories; **seconds** later, a message came through from someone named "Chip". Thank you, my boy....thank you.
Each time something like this happens, I literally feel my soul filling with the deepest sense of gratitude and comfort. Knowing that, although life can feel quite lonely... we're not alone. Ever. And although those we dearly love may not physically be around us in the form we once knew, they - very much- still are.
I can't believe it's been nearly a year since Chip passed. June 15th. The day life-as-I-knew-it forever changed.
Time is fleeting, and the older we get- the faster it seems to tick by.
Another reminder to stay present and really make our moments count. To savor and treasure each and every one of them. They truly are little gifts.
Love you, my boy.
Love you, Grandma.
Thank you for coming through... <3
